I hope you feel better.): Art is a great way to let it out, and I've had my own moments when I completely give up on my own art when I'm feeling really broken so I really admire that your sticking to yours.
We all have our share of monsters to take care of, yet you can't just beat them by facing them on some epic duel. Only actions let them take control, as long as they take our attention from our lives. A monster hungers for attention; without it, it dies while starving.